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Don't forget to read about Day 5 - http://japanesedream.livejournal.com/409395.html

There's not a great deal I can say about this day. It continues to exist in my thoughts on a tremendously personal & emotional level.

I spent pretty much the entire day in tears.

[livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky & I talked as we readied ourselves for a morning that would, no doubt, be difficult. I wanted to thank her mom for being so kind as to put me up (& put up with me, LOL), but I couldn't get the words out. Not until much later, in the car as she was driving us to the train station.

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The toughest moment (before my actual departure, anyway) came in the car. We're going over the bridge & I'm looking out onto the city. I'd seen this sight every day as we journeyed from Chatauguay into Montreal, & I was loathe to leave it all behind. I started crying, kind of quietly. [livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky's mom started playing Dir en grey's new album, not in order, just randomly, specifically a song called "Vanitas". It's a really beautifully-constructed ballad. But I was too emotional at that point, & it was making me cry a bit harder.

When Kyo sang a line that included the word "sayounara", I burst into an uncontrollable fit of tears. [livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky actually had to tell her mom to play something else.

Her mom felt bad, but it wasn't her fault. It really is a lovely song. She put on another song, I can't recall the title but I think it's the last track on the album, which is still pretty but harder-edged, so it wasn't as crushing. Once in the city, we proved to be a bit early, so we stopped at a little cafe-type place so [livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky could have coffee & pick one up for her mom. Her mom said we could sit there for a bit, but I wasn't able to partake of anything, even tho' I was offered. Food & drink weren't even an option at that point. All I wanted to do was cry.

The whole of life felt as though it were falling over the cat in those moments.

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Took a picture of a pretty church, Queen Mary of the World, as we passed it on the way to the train station. Also got a quick look at Dorchester Square, & Montreal's replica of the Paris Metropolitan entrance (http://www.visitingdc.com/images/paris-metro.jpg).

My heart sank into my stomach as we pulled into Gare Centrale, the station where I'd arrived a few glorious days before. I thanked [livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky's mom again, bid her good-bye (for now, at least), & [livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky went in with me. The currency exchange offices were closed, so I've still got my Canadian cash.

We found out where the line for the train was, & it was a bit of a wait. We were glad. Gave us some more time.

I left [livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky not with a 'good-bye' but with an 'au revoir'. She says those are nicer. I agree. Less final. As the Witches say, 'merry meet & merry part...& merry meet again'.

On the train, I had a seat to myself. Took one last picture of Montreal as we pulled away.

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Slept half the way back. Cried the other half.

I'm here now, & life, such as it is, returns to "normal". Maybe my experiences during this trip will motivate me to effect more of the change I've been seeking for so long. I certainly hope so. It's been tremendously difficult, being back. If a zombie got to be alive again for a few days & then had to go back to being a zombie, I think I'd know how it felt.

It was amazing while it lasted, tho'.


To whoever's read all of this, thank you.

More importantly, to [livejournal.com profile] teacup_sky & her family, thank you. For everything.

Date: 2011-08-14 08:27 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] el-jefe59.livejournal.com
{{{{{MONDO KAMO-CHAN HUGS}}}}}

Date: 2011-08-14 09:50 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] japanesedream.livejournal.com
{{{{{MONDO KAMO-CHAN HUGS}}}}}

Date: 2011-09-25 05:49 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] diru915.livejournal.com
D': aws marlene <3

i hope you get to go back soon!!! i know your schedule is sooo hectic, but it sounds like you had soo much fun!

you guys look so cute :3

if i get a lot of money, like win the lottery, or get a job, lol XD [kind of hoping for the first one] i have to visit you! XD but for now, i guess lj and fb work... *massive sigh*

Date: 2011-09-26 12:09 am (UTC)
From: [identity profile] japanesedream.livejournal.com
<333

Thanks, love, on all counts!! :3

Yeah, I'm def. hoping to get back again, despite crazy schedules & such. Hers right now is even crazier than mine. D': But I'm REALLY hoping Dec. will work out okay, since she's s'posed to come down for the Diru show. :) And even tho' I don't live in a beautiful, amaizng city like Montreal, we've got a few fun things to do here in suburban NJ, as my JP friends could tell you. ^_~

Yes, I want you to come visit! One of these days, I know you'll get here. Hopefully, I'll be able to come out there to visit you, too! Maybe during a school break or something (& by next year, I might be doing a bit of school, too! ^_^) But yeah, for now, the social networks will do nicely. :)

Date: 2011-09-29 06:43 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] diru915.livejournal.com
omg omg omg XD i'm getting more excited cuz diru will be here in like 3 months!!! XD i hope you guys have so much fun too!

i forgot though that it might be freezing over there for you guys! damn them for coming during the cold ass months XD diru try coming in the summer!! and maybe they would love it too haha

ugh school xD what are you trying to take? luckily my class was cancelled today, so i had some time to reply to ur messages XD pretty soon you'll prob be like me, waiting for a class to be cancelled so you can be lazy hahaa XD but i still have to clean today DX ugh

Date: 2011-09-30 11:01 pm (UTC)
From: [identity profile] japanesedream.livejournal.com
Thanks, I'm hoping we'll have fun. I'd be more excited if it weren't gonna be so dang COLD!! XD Yeah, they ought to try coming in summer. They could've waited at least until spring. Last year, they came in August. That was better.

Yep, just the French courses. After I get through those, & get used to doing the school thing again (it's been 20 years!), I'll go for the Japanese.

LOL, I'll let you know when I'm waiting for classes to be cancelled so I can be lazy. XD I'm glad you were able to get some time to reply, tho'! <3

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