I'm not really good at hiding when I'm feeling down.
...but sometimes I just can't take it.
Believe me, I know that feeling!
I try to think about good things & be positive, but I'm not a very confident person, & people have a way of getting to me, of making me feel bad & doubt or question myself, because I am often afraid of people or intimidated by them, as if they are all better or more important than I am. Then I start thinking I'm not good enough or I'm dumb or I'll never achieve the things I want to. And yeah, every once in a while, I start thinking it's, as Diru wrote in "Machiavellism", "wrist-cut show" time. :( I won't do anything, but yeah, sometimes it feels that bad.
Yeah, Toshiya does have a nice smile. <3 I'll have to keep some pictures of the boys at work. Maybe smiley ones! XD I have a Mana photo (not a smiley one, though) from an e-mail I sent (long story), & some scenic shots from my Japan trip (http://japanesedream.livejournal.com/183486.html) that I use for wallpapers...
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Date: 2009-04-01 11:44 pm (UTC)...but sometimes I just can't take it.
Believe me, I know that feeling!
I try to think about good things & be positive, but I'm not a very confident person, & people have a way of getting to me, of making me feel bad & doubt or question myself, because I am often afraid of people or intimidated by them, as if they are all better or more important than I am. Then I start thinking I'm not good enough or I'm dumb or I'll never achieve the things I want to. And yeah, every once in a while, I start thinking it's, as Diru wrote in "Machiavellism", "wrist-cut show" time. :( I won't do anything, but yeah, sometimes it feels that bad.
Yeah, Toshiya does have a nice smile. <3 I'll have to keep some pictures of the boys at work. Maybe smiley ones! XD I have a Mana photo (not a smiley one, though) from an e-mail I sent (long story), & some scenic shots from my Japan trip (http://japanesedream.livejournal.com/183486.html) that I use for wallpapers...